Can you let the noise go out of your physical body—the noise that just wants to fidget, that can’t sit still? Can you let go of the noise in your emotional body, your negative feelings, your fear, your anxiety, your uneasiness, your apprehension? And, of course, can you let go of the noise in your mental dimension—the automatic and habitual mind that just wants to run here there and everywhere, chasing its symbols and playing with their meanings? Can you just let it settle?
It might be really challenging for you if I invited you to be absolutely still while reading this posting. Since it’s not something you can do, I won’t ask it of you because authentic stillness is a state of being, not a state of doing. You can’t do stillness. Stillness is a state of being that arises out of your wholeness. If you’re whole and fulfilled in yourself you are dominantly still and empty. It is then easy to observe your own wholeness or lack thereof. Remember, the level of fragmentation in your own consciousness is revealed as the level of your noise.
Likewise, it’s easy to observe the same in everyone and everything that you encounter. It’s easy to observe stillness and noise. People for the most part are really noisy, and as a result they are very fragmented in their consciousness and very fragmented in their experience of life. But consider a flower. A flower isn’t noisy. A flower can teach you much about life, about existence, about wholeness. It has much to teach about true stillness. A flower just is. It’s not fidgeting, constantly adjusting its petals. It just is, being a flower. But human beings are really human doings, always fidgeting, always noisy.
It’s challenging for a human being to just simply be, to simply be still and empty. But it is only in the measure of our stillness that there is any proportional wholeness and, therefore, any proportional fulfillment. Fulfillment is proportional to wholeness, and wholeness is based on balance. If there is not enough stillness in relation to our noise, we do not experience balance, wholeness and fulfillment. We are not consistently happy for no reason, and we can’t answer the question, who are we?
Don’t reach to the noise of your mind for an answer to the question. If there is dominant stillness, the noise of the mind is relinquished. The noise of the mind is all content—the content of thoughts and beliefs about who you are and about life. When you relinquish this noise, you relinquish the thoughts, the beliefs, the data, the software of your soul, and there is just stillness in its place. Then you can ask the question, who am I? Who am I without my noise, my content?
You are just existence in a moment, life delighting in itself for no reason. In truth, there is no purpose to your existence and no meaning. Life is just a delighting energy, a consciousness fulfilled in itself. It needs neither content nor definition to define itself, to perpetuate its existence. It is eternal. Life has existed before you, through you, and it will exist long after you are gone. So what is your experience of life? Is it just two points: birth and death, and all the noise in between? Or is there some real experience of life, alive to essence, moment by moment. Are you fully alive, are you half-alive, or are you just the walking dead where there’s nobody home? When you’re not home, you are totally identified with your noise, your thoughts, your beliefs, your feelings, the content that you generate and the virtual reality you experience. Let it settle. When you are still and empty, what’s left? Who are you now?